Bring That Creativity Back

I love crafts. I love being creative. I love making lists. I love writing inspirational quotes on everything. I love taking time for myself once in a while.

Well. Tonight I decided to take some time for myself, get crafty and creative, make some lists, write an inspirational quote and take some time for myself. AND it turns out it all was geared towards a common goal. I want to start an Etsy shop. I started getting a bit crafty tonight as I revamped my new (purchased on sale) notebook and began to think up what I should use it for.20140323-232101.jpg

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Lately my life has been revolving around school. My dream is to become a Speech Language Pathologist, and I intend to apply to the graduate program next year. That being said, this amazing opportunity is also one that is amazingly competitive. I have been working my tail feather off night and day to be the best of the best. I even have a 104.5 in my speech anatomy class… How does that even happen?

I’ll tell you how. It happened because I have been so crazy focused on this passion and goal. By no means am I saying that this is a bad thing. I will say however, that it seems I have allowed my creativity and time to myself slip through the cracks. I need that time to myself to relax and just let my creative juices flow. There is only so much creativity that can be put forth into list making.

I of course am a very busy girl, and am by no means looking to overwhelm myself, as I am working quite possibly harder than I ever have during a semester in school, studying for the GRE, and working a job on top of all of that. I am, however, looking to find something to help keep me human and sane. Something to look forward to, but that I may also do at my own pace.

I am incredibly excited about this, and have decided that part of this new journal shall be dedicated to my brainstorming of ideas. I cannot wait!

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While I’m at it, I intend to write more. A lot more. Of what I am actually thinking. It is such a relief to get all of these crazy thoughts I have out on written paper (or computer in this instance). Whether it’s a blog post or private post, I intend to be a lot more open with myself with what I am thinking and feeling, and I see no better way to do that than to write. And boy am I excited. ❤

I also intend to start up my photography hobby again real soon. I have the resources and now it’s time to get back out there. I have been feeling so inspired lately! I probably won’t really delve into it until after my GRE is out of the way, but for now I can brainstorm and put post it’s on all of my favorite pages in my photography books. It keeps those creative juices flowing. And you know what? I have made a decision.

This year I will be creative, strong, passionate, and fierce. Look out world, here I come!

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Day 365: 365 days!! I made it!!!

Today is 365 posts on my blog!! I will admit this past semester burnt me out quite a bit and I started to literally not have much time to write anything of substance before falling asleep. That’s okay though because I did it!!! 365 days of posts and 365 days of honesty and openness about my heart and thoughts on this blog. I am really thankful I took the time to write out how I actually felt and especially with this past tough year. Things got hard but I never gave up. I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about it a few times… I am just so lucky to have had wonderful friends, family, and my love around me. The hard times are when you need them most, and I am so thankful I did. I think it’s the difficult times where you find out who your friends really are and who will still love you and be there for you even if you are going through such a battle.

At the beginning of last year I stated on this blog that I wanted to work on a few thing. I had goals. These goals were:
“I would like to spend the year…

improving myself- mentally and physically.

opening my mind.

not only making lists, but actually complete the tasks on them.

finding a new job, so that I can start saving.

keeping myself better updated with current events.

finding something to be passionate about.

facebooking less… exponentially less.

getting involved with a program that helps to make a difference such as It Gets Better, a suicide prevention hotline, or possibly a LGBT community program…

learning and practicing more photography.

FINALLY declaring a major!”

I thing I did pretty darned good with tackling most of this list. Before hurting my ankle I definitely had been steadily improving myself physically. I did two 5Ks and was more in shape and healthy that I had ever been in my life with all the running and dedication I was putting forth. I have a food doctor appointment coming up so once they tell me what’s wrong and whether I can put stress on it again, I really hope to get back out there. I feel I have improved myself mentally and opened my mind and heart to so many new things. I have made sure to be mindful of those things I didn’t quite understand and to try and my curious rather than judgmental.

My mind has absolutely been opened this past year. I can only hope to read more books and meet new people and genuinely listen and have my mind opened by them.

As far as the making lists and doing the things on them, I have worked on that, but honestly I know I need some more work on that. This past semester involved a ton of prioritizing with all of the constant work I was doing.

Not only did I find that new job but I found two! And I really love where I’m at now.

The keeping myself better updated on current events I was good at for a while bit I know I need to improve on that.

Something to be passionate about. For me, this past year that involved my love of running, hot yoga, taking pictures, and of course the love of my life, James.

Facebooking less… I feel like this one was a success, however I always feel like this one can be improved.

I did get myself involved with a program that makes a difference. I am signed up for ASB where I will provide my time to those in need for a week, and actually before the break is up I intend to find a hospital or nursing home to volunteer at.

As far as the photography thing goes. Ill be honest last semester kind of burnt me out and I just didn’t feel inspired. This next semester should be so much better though, and now that I got a dslr camera for Christmas I cannot wait to see what is in store!! I do want to take a photography class to learn the basics at some point real soon.

Best of all, in my opinion… I DECLARED A MAJOR AND FINALLY KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE!! I finally have a plan and it feels so good! One of the most stressful things is knowing you are running out of time, yet having everyone question your major and life choices when you aren’t even sure yourself. I have to give James a shout out on this one because he listened to me change my mind so much and talk about it so much. He was patient and never complained about my switching my mind, and always comforted me when I got super frustrated about not knowing what I wanted to do with my life. I am so thankful for that.

Speaking of which… another amazing thing that happened this year… An amazing guy walked into my life and made me the happiest I have ever been. He brought me up when I was feeling down, and he came just in time when my world felt like it was crashing down as I felt hopeless watching my grandma suffer and knowing her fate. I wish he could have met her, but I wouldn’t have wanted her to meet him in the state she was in. She was really out of it and not herself at the end. It was so hard to watch. But I am so thankful to have had this wonderful boy by my side to get me through because quite honestly… I was crying multiple times a week when she was at our house and just having to watch her die and lose her mind basically. It is probably the saddest thing I have ever had to watch. Quite honestly I don’t know where I’d be right now without him. He was my sunny sky when things were grey and for that I will always be in his debt. ❤ He showed me what true love was, and proved me so so wrong about the notion that "all guys are the same." He is special, and everything I was searching for and more. I don't say things like this very often but quite honestly he was a blessing. We have been together a little over eight months now, and he still makes me the happiest girl. 🙂

Day 356: Family

I love being around families. Especially big ones. I think there is just such a fun and positive atmosphere, and it’s so refreshing to be around. That’s what I think these times are all about. Tonight I met a huuuge bunch of James’s family. It was a bit nerve-racking at first, but everyone was super friendly and it was a really good time. 🙂 I wish my family made a point to get together more often. One day in the far off future I’d like a family of my own that is very fun and warm and welcome to be around. I think games are definitely a must! I would even love to have a game night with friends maybe once a month or so now. I think friends are just as important as family because they are the ones there for you through it all too, and because they want to be… Not just because they’re “required” by the bound of family. Friends are family. ❤

Day 341: My Love

Today I had a wonderful and much needed day with my love.

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This is the first actual day I have gotten to spend with him for more than a few hours at a time since Summer. Goodness gracious. It’s crazy how much you can miss a person even though you talk to them every day, and see them once or twice a week in passing. Just missing that quality time with them. We did a lot today. Including go to this bubble tea place where we played a pretty intense game of trouble and I won. >:)

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We also went looking at Christmas lights and it was so much fun. One house was so legit, their entire garage was a Santa workshop. I took a picture, but even so it doesn’t quite do it justice.

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I think today gave me that push I needed to keep going after such a crazy semester, and I know I can make it through this next week. Christmas break is almost here. Just one more week.

Day 339: travel

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I have the travel bug right now and bad. I really wish I could just drop all responsibilities and just go explore the world for a few days instead of worry and wear myself out over finals. I am so excited about this alternative spring break trip in Saint Louis. 🙂 I think some travel to a new place and a breath of fresh air is just what the doctor ordered.

I really feel like traveling feeds me. Fills my soul. Seeing new places is like seeing new worlds. The cultures just fascinate me, and the buildings and landscapes take my breath away. I wish I had an unlimited number of fly miles and could see any place in the world I wanted to at any time any day. That would be bliss. I feel like there is just so much to learn about yourself and the world that you can’t get by simply sitting in the same place or reading a book. Traveling greatly allows one to learn so much, and truly opens the mind. It’s nice reading about all of these fascinating places like Moscow, Munich, London, and New York, but I am ready to actually go forth and see and experience them for myself. These are some pretty far away places, but it’s not even the distance that makes them lovely. It’s the unknown, the beauty of the land, beauty of the people, simply the sheer art of traveling and seeing the world. I crave that travel and honesty of a new sight to see.

There is so much you don’t know or even know you don’t know until you actually get out there and just travel. So much you can learn about yourself and the world around you. So much room to grow. ❤

Day 345: Fun date night

Tonight I got to see James for the first time on a Saturday in a long time since he is usually working. We had so much fun-as we always do! We had dinner and then went to Walmart to do a $15 gift challenge. We both separated ways and had to buy something or somethings for the other person, doing our best to spend as close up to $15 that we could. It was really fun to go searching, and also really fun to give each other the gifts! I really did enjoy the night with him. I think we both needed it after such a long and dreadful week. These are the goodies I received at the end of the challenge. 🙂 Yes, they were actually thoughtful, just like my amazingly thoughtful and sweet boyfriend.

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Day 344: Students can make a difference

Over the course of this semester, I have had countless problems with unfair grading and treatment from a certain faculty member. Countless other students in my course have had those exact problems as well. There is no reason for over half of a class to be failing. Especially not for the specific course to which I am referring.

Well, I decided to do something about it. I arranged an appointment with the person in charge of the one “teaching” our course, I managed to get quite a few signatures on a letter I helped to put together in regards to the unfair treatment we receive in the class, and also gathered quite a few people to attend that meeting. Basically, I took charge, and did all I could to make a difference. I was sick and tired of putting forth hours and hours into a course, including seeing my instructor outside of the class weekly, yet coming out with nothing to show for all of my work. It was incredibly dishearteining. Especially since other students taking that same exact course were passing with A’s, yet showing forth maybe 1/4 of the effort and work that those in our class were putting forth.

The meeting was today. The result? The one we spoke with in charge agreed whole-heartedly with everything we said. She has agreed to give our papers another look, and give us the fair grades we deserve. I am so thankful. It is nice to know that students actually can make a difference.