Bring That Creativity Back

I love crafts. I love being creative. I love making lists. I love writing inspirational quotes on everything. I love taking time for myself once in a while.

Well. Tonight I decided to take some time for myself, get crafty and creative, make some lists, write an inspirational quote and take some time for myself. AND it turns out it all was geared towards a common goal. I want to start an Etsy shop. I started getting a bit crafty tonight as I revamped my new (purchased on sale) notebook and began to think up what I should use it for.20140323-232101.jpg

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Lately my life has been revolving around school. My dream is to become a Speech Language Pathologist, and I intend to apply to the graduate program next year. That being said, this amazing opportunity is also one that is amazingly competitive. I have been working my tail feather off night and day to be the best of the best. I even have a 104.5 in my speech anatomy class… How does that even happen?

I’ll tell you how. It happened because I have been so crazy focused on this passion and goal. By no means am I saying that this is a bad thing. I will say however, that it seems I have allowed my creativity and time to myself slip through the cracks. I need that time to myself to relax and just let my creative juices flow. There is only so much creativity that can be put forth into list making.

I of course am a very busy girl, and am by no means looking to overwhelm myself, as I am working quite possibly harder than I ever have during a semester in school, studying for the GRE, and working a job on top of all of that. I am, however, looking to find something to help keep me human and sane. Something to look forward to, but that I may also do at my own pace.

I am incredibly excited about this, and have decided that part of this new journal shall be dedicated to my brainstorming of ideas. I cannot wait!

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While I’m at it, I intend to write more. A lot more. Of what I am actually thinking. It is such a relief to get all of these crazy thoughts I have out on written paper (or computer in this instance). Whether it’s a blog post or private post, I intend to be a lot more open with myself with what I am thinking and feeling, and I see no better way to do that than to write. And boy am I excited. ❤

I also intend to start up my photography hobby again real soon. I have the resources and now it’s time to get back out there. I have been feeling so inspired lately! I probably won’t really delve into it until after my GRE is out of the way, but for now I can brainstorm and put post it’s on all of my favorite pages in my photography books. It keeps those creative juices flowing. And you know what? I have made a decision.

This year I will be creative, strong, passionate, and fierce. Look out world, here I come!

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Day 138: Making up for lost time

My sister, Sanaz, and me in our first picture together in about ten years.

 

Today my step sister and I met for lunch to celebrate for my upcoming birthday. I can’t believe I’m almost 20. I also can’t believe we are finally communicating again. It’s really nice to have her back in my life. I think today is probably the first time that things felt a bit less emotional, and a “sister bond” was actually felt in the things we were talking about. Of course, some of the lunch was spent talking of the past – it’s so difficult for it not to – but I think we’re finally moving past the worst. I couldn’t have asked for a better birthday gift than to actually have my sister back. It’s crazy how similar we are in our likes, thought processes, views, and even facial features. I’m just so incredibly thankful that the good things are helping to outweigh the bad right now. Like I mentioned in a previous post, I just have to keep grasping onto these rays of sunshine.

Day 137: Six Flags

Today is the second day in a row that I’ve been to six flags. I sincerely believe that buying a season pass was the way to go. It’s already more than paid or itself by far in two visits. Today I went with Katherine, Shelby, Cody, Shannon, and Sakina. It was so much fun!! I love them all so darned much and wish they didn’t have to go to college so far away. Minus the wasting two hours in lines for rides that ended up malfunctioning, it was a really wonderful day.

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This quote was stated after our argument at Culver’s about whether or not bees have knees. It was basically me versus everyone else stating that bees don’t actually have them, despite our unhealthy fascination with the phrase, “bees knees.” Katherine said something about how if a limb has a joint then it has a knee, and she realized that fingers and arms have joints too, and this is where I stated, “I got 99 problems but a snitch ain’t one!” Why you ask? I have no heavenly clue, but boy was it hilarious at the time!

This picture is probably my all time favorite from today. I just love how all the colors pop. It’s just perfect.

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Day 121: Finding Your Patch of Sunshine in the Grey

This morning on my drive to school, I couldn’t help but notice the dark, grey sky. It was mournful looking and lonesome. I kept looking though. I wasn’t really sure what I was looking for, and then I saw it and just knew. A little patch of sunlight in the dreary sky. After finding the sunlight, I just couldn’t seem to let it go. Finally, once I had found that little patch, it seemed as though the clouds started moving rapidly, transforming that little patch of sunlight into eventually half a sky full. Mind you, not all of the sky suddenly became sunny. Had I been turned in a different direction, perhaps that sunny sky would not have been visible to me. Thats what I think life is about. When things seem dreary and mournful, you just have to keep searching. You must! Keep looking for that little patch of sunshine. Once you find it, whatever or whoever your patch of sunshine may be, don’t let go. Appreciate that patch for all it’s worth. Eventually, that little bit of happiness just may turn into a whole sky full of happiness. Just like the sky this morning, that doesn’t necessarily mean that all grey skies will be gone, but it does mean that eventually you’ll have enough sunshine to help you through and not have to feel overwhelmed anymore. No matter how grey and stressful things may get, you always must have an eye out for that patch of sunshine. It’s out there. I promise. Just don’t stop searching.

Day 120: There is so much about my fate that I cannot control

For tonight I just thought I’d share one of my favorite quotes.

“There is so much about my fate that I cannot control, but other things do fall under the jurisdiction. I can decide how I spend my time, whom I interact with, whom I share my body and life and money and energy with. I can select what I can read and eat and study. I can choose how I’m going to regard unfortunate circumstances in my life-whether I will see them as curses or opportunities. I can choose my words and the tone of voice in which I speak to others. And most of all, I can choose my thoughts.”

-Elizabeth Gilbert

Day 119: I love my family so freaking much

Long story short: it was a zoo in my house tonight. I absolutely loved every minute of it though. My cousin that I hadn’t seen in quite a few years came down to Texas, and a whole load of my other cousins came over tonight as well. Each and every single one of them is like a sibling to me. I love them with all of my heart. I know we’ll always act goofy together even when we’re 80 years old and I wouldn’t have it any other way. It doesn’t matter how much time or distance is put between us. And that’s what makes family amazing and wonderful. <;3

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Day 117: Holding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned

Life isn’t fair sometimes. It’s filled will all sorts of events. Some are so happy we can’t stop crying with laughter, others so sad we just can’t stop crying. Some say that if you never experience true sadness, how can you ever truly experience true happiness? I suppose I agree with this remark. It’s just really difficult to get through those difficult moments sometimes, and I wish that wasn’t the case. I know I say it a lot, but we really have to make certain to love everyone around us as much as we can and show them that love because we never know what tomorrow has in store. I’ll admit that I have a hard time showing my feelings sometimes, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t care oh so much about all my loved ones. Just thinking of them not being happy makes me feel overwhelmed and sad. I love every single one of my family members and friends oh so much- I wish I could show them how much I care every day.

We went to the emergency room today because my grandmother, who has stage four cancer all throughout her body and a broken spine, was showing pretty bad symptoms. It turns out that she actually has pneumonia now too. I hate when bad things happen to good people. It’s just not fair. If there was something I could do to take her pain away I would do it in a heartbeat. All this is just heartbreaking to watch, and it’s a flashback to when I lost my grandfather. And it’s honestly pretty tough. Staying strong is key though. To getting not only myself but everyone around me through it. I’m lucky that I have the family I do. And I’m so thankful that everyone is on good terms again. I don’t know how we would have gotten through this about five years ago during “the fight” that was stupid and separated our family for much to long. Life’s too short to spend any time being angry and holding grudges. What’s the point?

“Holding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.

-Buddha

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